10:53 Dec 03 2009
Times Read: 843
I'm leaving VR today. I don't know when I'll return. I don't know how long I'll be gone. All I know is it's to painful to be here any longer. I can't stand the pain. It hurts to breathe, it hurts to sleep, it hurts to cry and it hurts to move. It hurts to look at that little picture by your name knowing I don't get love from that person anymore. I'm going to the doctor tomorrow. I'll post the results here so you guys know but then I'm gone. You needed to breathe? To cut the ball and chain? I wish you the best. My love is unending and will never be extinguished. My heart will hopefully rebuild it'self. It has a knack for doing that. It's done it countless times before. I wish I could just die but that's too easy. I'd rather feel pain then nothing at all. Goodbye all. For the most part you've been good to me. Some of you have caused rips in my heart. One of you even got into it and made a nice little home. Anyway, I digress. I'm to hurt to continue. If you know my email you can send me a line. If not then I hope you understand why I'm leaving. I'll never forget this place. Some of my greatest and happiest memories were here. July 8, 2007 for starters. That's when love found me and then? November 30, 2009 is when love left. *wipes his eyes* Enjoy your lives. Keep your loved ones close and never be afraid to say you're sorry.
I love you, I always have and I always will.
~Justin, Shadowed Sorrow~
10:04 Dec 03 2009
Times Read: 845
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fuFF_6bg4T4
I still hear your voice, when you sleep next to me.
I still feel your touch in my dreams.
Forgive me my weakness, but I don't know why.
Without you it's hard to survive.
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life.
Your arms are my castle, your heart is my sky.
They wipe away tears that I cry.
The good and the bad times, we've been through them all.
You make me rise when I fall.
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side.
Cause everytime we touch, I feel this static.
And everytime we kiss, I reach for the sky.
Can't you hear my heart beat so
I can't let you go.
Want you in my life
Cause everytime we touch, I get this feeling.
And everytime we kiss I swear I can fly.
Can't you feel my heart beat fast, I want this to last.
Need you by my side
Love Song Requiem10:02 Dec 03 2009
Times Read: 846
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=HODt2TQFh_g
Emily will find a better place to fall asleep
She belongs to fairy tales that I could never be
The future haunts with memories that I could never have
And hope is just a stranger wondering how it got so bad
I die each time you look away
My heart, my life will never be the same
This love will take my everything
One breath, one touch will be the end of me
You could be the final straw that brings me back to earth
Ever-waiting airports full of the love that you deserve
Wishing I could find a way to wash away the past
Knowing that my heart
Will break, but at least the pain will last
I die each time you look away
My heart, my life will never be the same
This love will take my everything
One breath, one touch will be the end of me
Emily will find a better place to fall asleep
Maybe she will save me in the oceans of her dream
And maybe someday love
Maybe someday love
Maybe someday love
Love Song09:44 Dec 03 2009
Times Read: 850
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XegWNJoCBg4
We were both young when I first saw you
I close my eyes
And the flashback starts
I'm standing there
On a balcony in summer air
See the lights
See the party, the ball gowns
I see you make your way through the crowd
And say hello, little did I know
That you were Romeo, you were throwing pebbles
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
And I was crying on the staircase
Begging you please don't go, and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes
So I sneak out to the garden to see you
We keep quiet 'cause we're dead if they knew
So close your eyes
Escape this town for a little while
'Cause you were Romeo, I was a scarlet letter
And my daddy said stay away from Juliet
But you were everything to me
I was begging you please don't go and I said
Romeo take me somewhere we can be alone
I'll be waiting all there's left to do is run
You'll be the prince and I'll be the princess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Romeo save me, they try to tell me how to feel
This love is difficult, but it's real
Don't be afraid, we'll make it out of this mess
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh oh
I got tired of waiting
Wondering if you were ever coming around
My faith in you is fading
When I met you on the outskirts of town, and I said
Romeo save me I've been feeling so alone
I keep waiting for you but you never come
Is this in my head? I don't know what to think
He knelt to the ground and pulled out a ring
And said, marry me Juliet
You'll never have to be alone
I love you and that's all I really know
I talked to your dad, go pick out a white dress
It's a love story baby just say yes
Oh, oh, oh, oh
'Cause we were both young when I first saw you
Crippled Hour Glass
10:29 Dec 02 2009
Times Read: 882
A sinking hour glass
Hanging above my head
Blood spattering the grass
It’s only because of my shaking hand
This cut into my heart so deep
It’s misplaced tragedy
When love is all I seek
The lacking space of your company
Has sent about the shock waves
That render my whole soul
When demons in me rage
And the devil takes his hold
All I want is you
Not this time and space
I don’t know what I’ll do
As my heart begins to skip it’s pace
It won’t be long before I’m dead
For happiness doesn’t seem to last
While it’s still hung above my head
This crippled hour glass…
Random Rant
10:22 Dec 02 2009
Times Read: 883
I've been doing a lot of writting lately. Mostly poems, mostly about pain. *shrugs* It's really nothing new. I usually write about stuff like that even if I'm happy. It's my style, my way of expressing myself, my way of doing things. These past few days though, I've done about 10 poems. Some of which were merely mediocre but a few have been some of my best. I don't know where I get the inspiration really. I just listen to music and clear my head. Anyway, the point I'm trying to make is, I've been doing some really good work. I'm proud of it. It's something I can look at and say to myself "Hey, you did exactly what you do best. You wrote and you succeeded." that's more then I can say about most things in my life. I've tried to make things more possitive in my life. More happy, less emo but it just doesn't always work out like that. I've tried bottling it up, punching my pillow, writting about it and nothing really works. I guess I'm more of a ticking time bomb *laughs* but not in the way most people think when they hear that metaphore. I mean it like one day, might be soon, might be later, but one day I'm going to write something truely awe inspiring. Truely out there and crazy and new and it's going to change lives. I know, people think that all the time and then when they hear it from another, look out. They tack them off as nutjobs or harmless idiots. I'm challenging each and every one who reads this to check back from time to time. Read my profile from time to time. When that day comes, I'll post a news bit in my profile saying it has arrived. I want to change lives, mainly my own with my internal struggles but I want to help others. I know what it's like to be truely happy. I want to feel that again. I want to experience that once more before my time is up. I want to cry tears of happiness and joy. I want to spill the nector of the Gods from my eyes onto my tie and smile about it. I miss those days. Anyway, I've rambled. I know, woah, crazy dude, right? Well in my opinion most people who were intelligent were crazy. And after all, who really likes normal?
Cyanide Sun- HIM
05:23 Dec 01 2009
Times Read: 856
Should've known how hard it is to stop tearing each other apart
Separating souls entwined with all these labyrinthine lies
I am dead to you, a shadow doomed
My love, forever in the dark
And of all untruths the truest is you
Too close to my heart
This emptiness I've made my home
Embracing memories of dreams long gone
One last caress from the corpse of love is all I want
Underneath the cyanide sun
We've sailed the seas of grief on a raft built with our tears
Looking for a way to disappear for a moment from our deepest fears
I'll be drowning you in this river of gloom
Forever in my heart
This song won't get out of my head! Damn it!
COMMENTS
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Tinnu
01:25 Dec 27 2009
Yay, you finally got it! Glad you liked it. :)